random thoughts in beautiful knots
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johnny cash [hurt]
(Source: alliejaay, via my-cavanaugh-park)
sitting in a big white room alone
tilt my head and feel the tears roll down
cause my eyes can’t see in the dark
i feel numb, broken, and so so scared
i don’t wanna be here anymore
i wanna be somewhere else
roaming free, like i used to be…
but i have to stay in this big white room
with little old me…
sitting in a big white room alone
close the door
don’t want the pain to come in
i clench my fists
and try to stay strong
i cry but feel sick
my heart is beating, beating, beating out of control
can i run, run more faster than you?
wanna feel my body again
feel the wind in my hair
but i have to stay in this big white room
cause no one else cares
I never sleep alone
Screen printed Zombie arms with hand painted details, along with appliquéd hands on pillows.
Designed by me :D
want!
(via interaliens)
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Joyce Meyer (via abstractorigami)
(Source: scottzzzz, via my-cavanaugh-park)
you never know what life will bring you… or where it will take you. i still don’t know. still can’t fathom the mysteries of my path. or the ferocity of this love. the excitement and the calm and the parts of myself that remain hidden. the expectations of my parents and the presence of my Father, nudging me to search for Him and be found. i feel like i’m on the edge of the true unknown. doors crack but do not swing wide. my vision is short. blurry sightings of inches and total blindness to feet. my lidded eyes flutter with each unsure step. and there’s a peace that doesn’t quite feel like peace. anxiety that settles and rises and washes over my daily thoughts. everything is unfamiliar. everything is beautiful. the majesty of these moments leaves me without words.
baby, you’re the perfect shape
baby, you’re the perfect weight
treat me like my birthday
i want it this way, i want it that way
tell me you don’t want me to stop
tell me it would break your heart
i don’t think i’ve ever been this anxious slash excited slash nervous about anything in my life. just hoping this waiting doesn’t drive me crazy. praying that this turns out to be something worth waiting for.